5.5.09

Today was my due date. If things had gone differently, I would be holding my new baby today. Looking at his or her eyes, holding his or her little hands in mine, and trying to figure out which one of us he or she looks like. I have been dreading this day with everything in me. I have worried and wondered about how I would react today. It’s amazing; I can't even explain the Peace that God has given me today. While I AM sad, I am not overwhelmed. I am actually OK. I honestly never thought I would be able to say that and without the help of God, I wouldn’t be able to say it. He is my ALL IN ALL!

The old song is so true....

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all

Seeking you as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I’d be a fool
You are my all in all

When I fall down you pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

I don’t know who is out there reading this today, or what is going on in your life; but please let me assure you, even when it feels like you can’t hold on, Jesus is holding you. Don’t give up! I have felt, at times, like I couldn’t go on, like my life was falling in around me, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I also know the relief that comes when Jesus just holds you in his arms, and that is a place I never want to leave. Please, know that God loves you and wants nothing but the best for you. Sometimes he allows us to walk through things that we can’t understand, but he is always there to hold us, just don’t give up.


Isaiah 43:2 (NIV)
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.


Psalm 89:1 (NIV)
I will sing of the Lord’s great love forever; with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations.