Favorite Song Friday...and a little more

I am not sure if Mandye is doing her Favorite Song Friday today, like she did last week, but I sure didn't want to miss out if she did! Our office is closed for Good Friday and I am not near a computer. (I scheduled this post ahead of time)

It's a little heavy this week....I promise, next week will be all fun and games...upbeat and light hearted....I just wasn't "feeling it" this week...I am in such awe of our wonderful Jesus and how he manages to take someone so broken and fix them in the blink of an eye.

This song has really been on my heart this week. I have had such a hard time the past couple of weeks. It was hard just to hold on. I started to feel like my life was falling apart around me, and there was NOTHING I could do to stop it. I couldn't feel God, I couldn't see Him in anything I was going through, and I was questioning where he was in the middle of all my pain. The closer the days came to May 5th (my due date) the worse the depression and loneliness felt. Sunday night, I sat at my Grandmothers kitchen table, and cried and just laid it all out in front of her and God! There were things I didn't even realize I was feeling that came flooding out of my mouth. It was so raw and so painful. I can't even explain the experience. She talked with me for a while and told me some things the Lord had shown her concerning me, and then she prayed for me... right there at her table! It amazes me how faithful God is....Just like his word says, where 2 or more gathered in his name, he was with us...not at a big church or at an alter in a church service, no pastor around, no choir or worship team! It was just me and Mamaw....and Jesus took the time to show up...right there at her kitchen table!!

I feel so refreshed this week. I haven’t shed another tear since, and I had been crying constantly for weeks. I finally took hold of the fact that God IS always with us, even through the times when I can’t feel him, even when I don’t understand why things happen the way they do, and even when I am so angry inside. God is with us ALWAYS. His plans are not our own and His ways are not our ways. He is still on the throne, He is still holy, and He allows things to happen for an eternal purpose. I may never understand, this side of Heaven, why he had to take my baby from me, but I do know he knows my pain! He gave His son's life, in order for us to live! Why would I not trust a God that would do that for me!!

Always by Building 429

Remember to pause my music player at the bottom before playing this video.




I was standing in the pour raining
One dark November night
Fighting off the bitter cold
When she caught my eye
Her face was torn and her eyes were filled
And then to my surprise
She pulled out a photograph
And my heart just stopped inside
She said He would have been three today
I miss his smile, I miss his face
What was I supposed to say

But I believe always always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone
God knows our pain and His promise remains
He will be with you always

He was living in a broken world dreaming of a home
His heart was barely keeping pace
When I found him all alone
Remembering the way he felt
When his daddy said goodbye
Fighting just to keep the tears
And the anger locked inside
He's barely holding on to faith
But deliverance is on its way

Because I believe always always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone
God knows our pain and His promise remains
He will be with you always

Friend I don't know where you are
And I don't know where you've been
Maybe you're fighting for your life
Or just about to throw the towel in
But if you're crying out for mercy
If there's no hope left at all
If you've given everything you've got
And you're still about to fall
Well hold on, hold on, hold on

Because I believe always always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all faith is gone
God knows our pain and His promise remains

Always, Always
He will be with you always
He will be with you always
He will be with you